She is my mom

She is my mom. But, she has never asked me to dine out.She has never helped me to fill my bowl with soup. Is she my mom? We have been in a ice-war since that night, that night she told me I was rude to my dad but she should have known that I used to talk to him in that way. I don't like him, I try to love him but yet I can't cross my heart to like him at all because of his attitudes. 

God, I don't pray to love him, I know I am so bad, really bad....

Tell me what to do?

She just don't like me since I was young. I know that, I do really know that even how hard I want to be a filial piety daughter.

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